That moment when you realize your clutter might be out of control…when you literally lose your check book under a huge pile of neglected mail!
I know I ate well and responsibly the day before when I wake up hungry. Last night I really wanted a snack and I stayed up far too late reading which only compounded my urge to snack. But I remembered how two months ago I said I meant business but kept making poor decisions. And I remembered how I had a goal of fitting into my work wardrobe again by my birthday. Well, my birthday is in a little less than a month and I won’t fit into all of my clothes again. But I can definitely still lose some noticeable weight. Sometimes eating well and not bingeing is so hard, but so is being overweight and disappointed and ashamed of the poor decisions I make.
Now I am off to try to be productive at work. How can it only be Tuesday?
Sigh…that is all.
Had a pretty nice swim earlier today. I wish I could feel like this after every work out. One thing I do miss about unemployment was the ability to swim at least four times a week. Now I struggle to swim twice a week.
I had a bad eating week but for now I am back on track. We’ll see how much headway I make in these extra pounds by my birthday. I am seriously worried that my fall blouses and jacket won’t fit. Fall is my favorite season but I am praying summer weather sticks around for a while.
Took today off. However, I actually had to wake up earlier than I would on a regular work day because I took my car to the shop. Later I will try to resist my inclination to nap and will head to the gym. Unfortunately it is not in my head that my jeans are noticeably tighter today. And then a friend and I are hoping to win last minute tickets to The Book of Mormon. I have a busy day and a busy weekend but I still plan to catch up on rest!
Here’s to hoping they don’t find something wrong with my car in their diligent search to find ways to take my money…
So I never made it to the gym. Every Tuesday I get caught up in the ESPN documentary series Nine for IX and then I move on to Rizzoli and Isles. I forget that my dvr is recording the shows and by the time they are finished my tush is firmly planted on the couch!
No worries though. I struggled through a 30 day shred work out instead! Now it’s time to foam roll and shower and sleep. Just two more days until my extra long weekend!
Sigh…still no diagnosis. I am apparently just going to be a little broken forever. Oh well. Tonight I will swim and walk. Hopefully in a few weeks when I try to ride the bike again I won’t have a crazy flare up like I experienced earlier this year.
Also, today is day 4 without potato chips. Tomorrow will be the real first challenge because we are having our monthly birthday celebration and there will be plenty of chips. Perhaps I can just justifiably eat a second brownie?
At yet another doctor appointment about my hip/pelvic injury. Maybe this time I’ll finally have a diagnosis. And then maybe the last lingering pain will finally resolve! We’ll see. I’m trying to be optimistic.
I had a setback with my avoidance of potato chips last Thursday and Friday. This led to well-designed indigestion early Saturday morning. Three days chip free…I really do feel like I’m constantly battling an addiction. This also led to a realization that I was not packing enough food to get me through the work day. This made me much more susceptible to my afternoon chip cravings and left me with no will to resist temptation.
Enough about food. Last week was a week of big decisions regarding my health and fitness goals. First, I decided to give up jogging for now or possibly forever. My knees just weren’t happy with me after my runs. And as I neared the end of couch to 5k (I made it to week 8! So close!) my right knee was only becoming more achy. So clearly these extra 25 pounds I regained are having real consequences when it comes to my already fragile knee joints. I can’t even imagine how I was running 5 miles at one point pre-injury. But I do recall that my knees were always really sore afterwards back then. Hell, that running led to my never healing injury! Why on earth was I trying so hard to get back to that painful routine?! When I’ve lost some weight I’ll think about trying it again. Maybe. Now my jogs are being replaced with walking and swimming. Slow and steady will win this race.
I’ve also decided to stay off the scale until my birthday in October. We’ll see how that experiment goes.